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It's been a long time since I post anything on here since this site is nothing but a cess pool of fetish arts and cliche AU fanfics and people taking pictures of their dinners while all of the hard working arts gets pushed to a corner which explains why I stopped posting anything on here anymore that isn't any of those kind of art. If people start caring about my work then I might post some more but this is only one of the reasons why I'm not on here much these days and there are more other reasons.

First off, I got two jobs now and one of them is a tempt job where I help the Health Network I've been going to to shred old papers in order to clear up space and the other new job is working at a KFC/Tacobell restaurant doing cleaning for now until I go up in ranks to cook food and handle the cash registers. It's better than nothing and I get to keep my medicaid card and never have to worry about ending up living in a homeless shelter if my parents were to die suddenly. I start this Friday to get set up and then I get my first time sheet to see where I am at during the day for part time.

Therapy has been a huge help and same to go with Peer Support group and ever since I've been going there, I no longer wanting to kill myself anymore and my depression is getting better and my therapist agrees that I do need to live on my own and move out of my parents' place or set up boundaries with my mom and how she treats me badly. We've been getting a lot of stuff covered and making more sense about why I am like this today.


Grandma's health is sadly getting worst even though her hip healed up but now she got another medical condition where fluid builds up around her heart and chest area and her mind is wasting away to the point of she's no longer in the present and she's forgetting names of her family members. She was even found making a grocery list and talking about my dad living with her when in reality he's not and couldn't remember who's my uncles and my dad is. We're at the point that we're packing her house up and bringing stuff home and I asked if I can have the house when she passes away and my parents told me no and how it's to pricey to keep the house going even if I have full ownership of it.

The college my dad worked at are now laying people off and cutting their hours and my dad was hit the hardest all because he refuses to take the buyout due to the colleges shitty spending spree, hiring worthless people, and blowing all of their money on crap they don't need like huge parking lots and dorms cause they're not getting a lot of students to come due to how hard the college is, how shitty it looks on the inside, dated equipment, and you're living in a poverty town with zero fun things to do beside get drunk off your ass and eat nothing but take out food. So now we're hurting for cash a little more and my mom is taking her stress out on me by chewing my ass out over everything I do.

So that's it.

Still no job and I went to an interview that went nowhere cause all the employees were transferring themselves to newer ones after all of the college students have left for school which once again means Meijer is swamped like fucking always leaving me not even crumbs to grab. Which makes six interviews that never went anywhere and one landed me a job that didn't last long no thanks to Wal-Mart getting greedy on their asses and laid me off.

Sadly, Arthur lost his fight to cancer after he was discovered tumors on his liver and they were fragile enough to break and bleed out. So we put him to sleep to spare him from bleeding out again and dying a slow and painful death.

We found a good spot for Bandit. We buried him next to mom's Craft Cottage and we're going to plant flowers and make him a nice fence around his grave so we can visit him more often and the plot is bigger so Cubbie will be buried next to him in the future when he passes away. After so much grieving I've been doing since he was in the hospital, we decided to get a puppy and we're going to see her tomorrow and get to know her and then bring her home around January. She's a Pom Poodle and I already named her Laika after the famous Russian dog who went into space. (Yes, I know the dark reality of her history.)

I lost my furry best friend tonight. His heart gave out when they were going to put him on a ventilator to see if that would help his lungs and they found more clots than before in them too. It was a 10-15% percent chance he would live once he was off it after he was on it for two to three days. So now I'm dogless and grieving for my furry friend who listened to my problems, went for walks with me, and who was always happy to see me when I come home from somewhere. Goodbye, Bandit. I love you.

So 2017 is now coming at us with worst stuff ever with us now facing two things happening to me now. First off, Bandit is in the Hospital and they found a tumor on his kidney and blood clots in his lungs and the surgeon said that he'll do okay in surgery but yet he said theirs a good chance that he might die after surgery if he up and clots on them due to how bad his lungs is. But they said that if he pulls through, he'll be on pills and blood thinners for life and he'll have a slow recovery for his lungs so he'll be needing a lot of love and care over this.

Also another bad news, Wal-Mart is letting me go next Friday after they decided not to hire all of the Holiday temps for good. They praised me for doing a great job and learning a lot of stuff fast but yet they wanted to see me talking to the customers more while I handle their grocery and asking them about themselves too. So between now till next Friday, I'll have to do more job hunting again. They told me to hand in my applications around February since next month they said is going to be slow for them and I do have some cash that I spend but I can't do it all the time though till I get a job that will stick with me for good.

Grandma is now in the nursing home after she had a nasty slip and fall at home that popped her arm out of the socket and she was in a lot of pain and have to be watch 24 hours a day till she makes a full recover and go home again. So I can't make extra cash anymore till we know what's going on now with her and see how she is now.

So that's it. That's all the crap going on in my life now and I just want to die now.